Tuesday, February 3 2004
the view from the porch
I am still alive although it’s been over ten days since I’ve last written. It’s not that I haven’t wanted to, it’s just that sometimes life travels faster than you actually do. And I am still traveling and life is flying by. Sometimes I feel as if I am having a nervous breakdown, as if I have too many choices. But I like choice, because it allows me to make decisions. I am never sure if they are the right decisions or not, but I guess the only way to know is to try.
I am spending the month of February in California. Not in one particular place, actually more or less all over the state. Right now I am close to North Fork, which is the dead center of CA. Yesterday I was in San Francisco, which is obviously not the dead center of CA since North Fork claims that title. Being here makes me realize that I really do love SF.
Still I am not ready to commit, “to settle down.” I have an exciting job opportunity next month which will bring me back east. I don’t want to jinx it just yet, because I haven’t actually started work, but it’s something I am really excited about for the sheer adventure of learning. And if all goes well I will have a lot of responsibility. And after six months of recreating my life, I will be ready.
But I am not done. I just wanted to touch base, let you know that I am living, breathing, eating, pooping and enjoying the warmer weather out west (although it snowed here yesterday, and I am only 10 miles from a lot of snow in the town of Oakhurst, which is rather close to Yosemite). So it won’t be too long before you shall hear from me again.
In other words…
I will be back.
Posted in seX matters by jamye on 02/3/2004 - 8:14pm
Tell Me You Love Me
February 4th, 2004 at 5:54 pm
so where are you girlfriend?
February 4th, 2004 at 9:38 pm
good to see that you’re still alive. Likewise in bitter cold NY. wish i could say that all is great up here but…well, things could be worse. kate gets back next week and we had agreed to hold off making any decisions about the relationship until we could sit down face to face. I’ve spent so much time worrying what she’s going to say, whether she still wants in and what she needs from me to make that happen that I lost track of some of the things I want to say, whether or not I deep down want this relationship and what I need from her to make that happen. Think that’s just the nature of being the one who receives the breakup or maybe breakup speech as opposed to the one who delivers it, which she did better than 5 weeks ago now. Anyhow, I could go on and on. Not much to speak of with the job, I’ve starting walking dogs at a no-kill shelter in Brooklyn, tried to get a ticket for Mardi Gras but just can’t afford it, have lost about 30 pounds in the last two months, and…not much else to speak of. Oh, I’ve started wearing my glasses on a daily basis, i’m a sophisticatinato now! Strange this is that since i started wearing them and losing weight i’ve been getting carted at bars which in a way is refreshing. Hope all is well by you. Punch a hippie is San Fran for me, just not yourself!
February 4th, 2004 at 10:44 pm
Call me Jamye I miss you