Drifting off..between sleeping life and waking life..into that unconscious void where we try to stay alert long enough to remember and try to fall asleep soon enough to avoid staying alert too long, I often find myself thinking…heavily.

What if we could all dictate our thoughts onto paper, without ever writing a word? Would we still have difficulty expressing ourselves, expressing how we “feel” or what we are really thinking? If our thoughts were immediately typed out and printed on some low grade office paper, the 8 x 10 variety, and we could distribute them to all intended parties, would we want to be able to so readily express ourselves? Or would we still shy away from telling people the truth?

Sometimes I hold a lot back, and I am not sure if it’s healthy. Sometimes I say too much, and this might not be healthy either. Is there really a perfect balance?

What part of thinking do we not communicate because of the lack of proper explanation? How often do words fail us? If we knew our thoughts were going to be recorded, would we try to think differently? Or would none of this matter at all?

Sometimes I wish the person my thoughts were directed at would just understand exactly what it was I was thinking. It might seem like too much information for one person to process, or maybe it would be an invasion of privacy for the person doing the thinking, but how great would it be if you could be so in tune with another person that thinking was effortless? Perhaps then you could just be and not worry so much about what others thought..of you..of them..of life in general.

Do you get me?