March 03, 2005
The Haze is Clearing
Tasty!!!
I am having one of the most vaporific fresh breath sort of days. In fact, it's so crystal clear a headspace sort of day that I don't know how much of what I'm gutterly feeling I should trust. I've got big meetings and other things of the sort, and as I really feel like it's all starting to make sense, I mean at this very moment, I also recognize that this too may pass.
I've been waiting for a signal and today in the shower I think I got my sign. It's just that I've never been one to trust myself, which is the reason that while I can tandem skydive or bungyjump if someone else ties the towels and cord around my legs, I can't skydive by myself or ski. I trust myself but only if others push me.
Well, I am the only one who can push me, it's today that I've recognized that I need to push me in my right direction. Although who knows if there is ever really a right direction, there's just a direction my gut can tell me to go in. But I'm really trying to listen to it and make some big decisions.
Bigger work decisions than I've ever made in my life. So, today, please excuse me for my cluttered head or the lack of confidence in what I think I have to do. Give me 24 hours to figure this thing out, at least to take it to the next level, and love me anyway.
After all, I lick a nice piece of ass...wouldn't you agree?
Posted by jamye at March 3, 2005 11:52 AM